After hearing sad news, I decided to do a meditation to help me find my peace. What I found is that the tears we have for a sad situation usually become fuller. This happens when the feelings we have stored up regarding the reactions we received from others.

Meditation Brings Up the Battle

For one minute I did realize that the moment I meditate, I would have to battle other feelings. Maybe that’s why some don’t like to meditate? They realized what it really entails and sometimes don’t want to open that box.

As I meditated on finding my peace, what I actually saw was the evidence to why I felt alone, left out, and not good enough. It certainly is funny how the universe works. Right as you think to meditate to put yourself in a good place, you discover the upward climb is in front of you again. The only way out is to work through the feelings or stuff it down for another sad time when you try to find your peace.

Meditation is Hard Work

Maybe that’s why people shy away from meditation? It’s not the idea that we don’t know how to do it. It’s the realization that we’re gonna have to work and we’re gonna get dirty. As I meditate, I see summer days and how I got through them. I notice the responsibilities I had as a youngster, but understand that was the times we lived.

By sitting in this time while meditating, it occurs to me that here lies the feelings of being left out, alone, or simply unloved. What my job now is to sit with this youngster and speak to her. By doing this, I help myself heal from feeling unloved, left, and alone. As I sit with her, I put my arm around her. This immediately comforts my feeling of unloved to feeling loved. It helps me see that as I grew, I was collecting feelings from situations but not sorting through them and turning them positive.

The Hard Work is Worth It

When I realized that I always wanted to have a parent to do things with, out came the largely filled tears. They actually splashed a big splash next to my shoulder as I laid on the couch doing my meditation. I don’t remember having tears that large. I guess when you finally release those old feelings you had as a child, you are releasing a huge amount of pain.

Think about it, when we’re kids, we’re not understanding why adults do the things they do. We merely continue on with our selves shining our light where every we go. As we do, we’re not realizing that our light was helping others. Instead of directing my sadness or anger towards the actions done unto me, I look closer at what that adult was going through at the time. I realize the feelings I built up over being pushed away. More importantly, they were actually that person helping me learn how to find my own way. Although I felt alone and unloved, the situations I recall were times of someone else’s struggle.

Clearing Out the Past

Meditation is work, but comes with a wonderful outcome. As you sit in past feelings and the moments that went along with them, realizations of feelings towards that person change. Suddenly you catch on that meditation is a way out of sadness because it helps you pin point when those past feelings began.

When you’re lucky enough like me to have spiritual friends, you can bounce the universe around with them. It becomes clear that once we go inside and peek at the past, understanding comes pouring out. I guess that is why people state that they’re working on themselves. Work is hard, but once you practice looking for that youngster in your meditations, you can sit with them and heal your pain.